LIFE IN A MISERABLE WORLD

 

LIFE, WHAT IS LIFE?
I HATE LIFE!
LIFE IS WASTED TIME SPENT ON EARTH.
WASTED DAYS AND NIGHTS.
LIFE IS SPENT WANDERING WHAT TO DO WITH YO’SELF
BUT WHY WHEN U AIN’T GOT NOBODY TO DO ANYTHING WITH!
I HATE LIFE!
LIFE AIN’T NUTTIN’ BUT A STUPID GAME WHERE U LOSIN’ HALF THE TIME BECAUSE U NEVA FEEL LIKE A WINNA.
WHAT IS LIFE?
I HATE LIFE.
F*** IT.

HATRED, WHAT IS HATRED?
HATRED IS WHAT I FEEL TOWARDS EV’RYONE WHO HAS IT TOWARDS ME.
BASICALLY EVRYONE I KNOW ‘CEPT MAYBE A SELECT FEW.
HATRED IS WHAT I FEEL TOWARDS THOSE WHO CHOOSE TO IGNORE ME BECAUSE I AIN’T LIKE DEM.
HATRED IS WHAT I FEEL TOWARDS THOSE WHO NEVA INVITE ME TO PARTIES, THINKIN’ I MAY NEVA GO.
I’D DIE TO GO.
HATRED IS WHAT I FEEL EV’RYDAY BECAUSE I NEVA HAV ANY BETTA FEELIN’S IN LIFE.
PEOPLE OFTEN WONDER Y I LISTEN TO WHAT I LISTEN TO.
I LISTEN TO WHAT I LISTEN TO BECAUSE I CAN RELATE TO IT.
IT SEEM LIKE MY WHOLE LIFE ALL I SAW IS NEGATIVITY
AND I’M SEEIN’ IT MORE AND MORE EV’RYDAY.
I SEE IT WHEN I SEE PEOPLE WHO REFUSE TO PARTY OR HANG WITH ME.
I SEE IT WHEN PEOPLE CHOOSE TO DIS ME OR DOG ON ME JUS CUZ I AM THE WAY I AM.
I SEE IT WHEN PEOPLE CHOOSE TO IGNORE ME THE WAY THEY DO.
I SEE IT WHEN I STAY HOME WHEN NOT AT WORK BECAUSE THERE BEIN’ NO PLACE TO GO OR PEEPS TO CHILL WIT, BECAUSE THE PEEPS DON’T WANNA C MY ASS ANYWAY.
THEY ALL CHOOSE TO IGNORE ME.
FINE THAN.
BE DAT WAY!
MY WHOLE LIFE I WAS TOLD TO B AND THINK POSITIVE
HOW THE HECK CAN U B OR THINK POSITIVE WHEN U DON’T SEE STUFF POSITIVE?

FRIENDS?
WHAT ARE FRIENDS?
I AIN’T HAVE A CLUE, NEVA HAD NO TRU FRIENDS.
BUT TO ME, FRIENDS R THOSE WHO HANG OUT WIT U 4 A WHILE,
THAN DO WHAT THEY CAN TO TURN THEY BACKS ON U.
THEY HANG WIT U, AND THAN THEY DIS U.
DAT AIN’T NO FRIEND.
AND THEN THEY CUM BAK ROUND AND BLAME THE LOSS O’ FRIENDSHIP ON U. 
DAT AIN’T RITE.  IT AIN’T RITE.
AND THAN WHEN U TRY TO TALK TO THEM TO GET TO HANG OUT WITH ‘EM AGAIN, THEY CHOOSE TO BE PART O’ DAT CRU DAT HATE U!
SEEM LIKE THE WHOLE DAMN’ WORLD IS AGAINST U!

EV’RYTIME I DRINK, I POUR OUT SUM LIQUOR.
I DON’T KNOW Y 4.
I AIN’T GOT NO CRU, HOMEYS, NO Gs.
ALL I HAV IN LIFE IS JUS ME.
NO FRIENDS, NO GIRLS.
JUS ME.
NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY, EV’RYONE STILL CHOOSES TO IGGY ME!
THE BASTARDS KNOW I DRINK, BUT DO THEY EVER INVITE ME TO GO DRINK OR PARTY WITH THEM?
HELL NO!

PEOPLE OFTEN WONDER Y SWEARIN’ IS IN MY VOCAB.
LOOK AT MY LIFE.  SEE WHAT I HAD TO DEAL WIT, AND THAN MAYBE U’D KNO Y.
I F******’ SWEAR TO EXPRESS MY F*****’ FEELIN’S TOWARDS THIS F***** UP WORLD.
I EVEN OFTEN WONDER Y THEY NEVA SEE MY DEPRESSION.  CAN THEY NOT SEE THE SADNESS AND GLOOM ON MY FACE?
I NEVA F*****’ SMILE.  NO ONE GIMME A REASON TO.

THIS ONE GO OUT TO ALL THOSE WHO CHOSE TO HATE ON ME.  YOU ALL KNOW WHO U R. 
IT’S PRETTY MUCH JUS ‘BOUT EV’RYONE O’ Y’ALL OUT THERE.
IF U EVA GOT A HOLD O’ DIS, MAYBE THAN U WOULD UNDERSTAND Y I AM WHO I AM.  AND CHOOSE TO BE WHO I AM.

I AIN’T RELIGIOUS.  GOD NEVA HELPED ME.  I HATE RELIGION BECAUSE I GOT TO A POINT WHERE I WAS BEGINNING TO THINK IT AS FAKE.
I MEAN, HOW WOULD U FEEL IF U WANTED YO LIFE TO CHANGE SO U WENT TO CHURCH EV’RY WEEK FOR 4 STR8 YEARS,
AND GOD NEVA HELPED U?
THEY SAY GOD HELPS U IN HIS OWN TIME.  F*** DAT.  I WANT HELP NOW, DAMMIT!

F*** THE WORLD.
F*** LIFE.
F*** Y’ALL.
F*** POSITIVITY, CUZ I AIN’T NO LUCILLE BALL, SO I AIN’T GONNA BE FAKE WIT Y’ALL.
F*** U.
LIKE I SAYS EARLIER, I AIN’T GONNA B POSITIVE WHEN I DON’T SEE STUFF POSITIVE.
NEGATIVITY MAKE ME FEEL BETTA IN THIS DISGRACEFUL
FULL O’ HATRED WORLD!

F*** YOU!